For as far back as I can remember I always dealt with my mental health and if I would ever be good enough. Back in 2022 my mental health went down a really dark path. I was in a toxic work environment with people that emotionally mistreated me. No matter what I did for that job I felt like I wasn’t good enough or I didn’t get the recognition I deserved. That job broke me down to the point where I rather have gotten into a car accident than go to work. I had panic attacks and anxiety just thinking about having to go there the next day. The level of mistreatment from the customers and also staffing was more than I could handle. That year I was also dealing with toxic family drama where my “father” made my mother choose between her kids and him.
I was so unhappy with my life that it was so hard for me to get out of bed. I was putting on a fake smile for everyone and inside I was crying for help. I felt lost and I hated every aspect about me and my life. I didn’t know how to deal with my emotions and I wanted everything to just stop. Then one September night my then fiancé and I were talking before bed on ideas on how to get me another job and how to break me out of this darkness. He jokingly said I should make my own lingerie company since I love shopping at Victoria’s Secret so much. He did have a point but I didn’t want to create just a normal lingerie company. I was dealing with so much mental health issues and hating on my body, that I wanted to create a platform for women to be themselves. I wanted to create something that talks about mental health and encourages women that it’s okay to feel this way. A place that promotes body positivity because that is something I’m fighting with every day. 9/20/2022 @ 9:02 AM Suppress was born.
On this day not only did we have a movement that promotes mental health awareness to women and body positivity. But we had the perfect name to tie it all together.
I would be a liar if I said that Suppress has cured my mental health or made me love my body more. But it has helped me work on myself and believe in myself that anything is possible even when you’re hurting. It gave me hope that one day I can help someone that is feeling the same way I do. I want women to wear this lingerie for themselves and know that they are beautiful. I want them to feel fierce and unstoppable. No matter what their head is telling them I want them to suppress those negative emotions and just love who they are. Suppress has given me a new view on life.